But he thinks its just one more sunset.

I blog alot more than Will does. but probably have less time to.
whatever.


I've had and awful day so far.

Well, I mean on the grand scheme of things, it was just kind of crappy, but I like to be dramatic and girly, it was awful. shall we start the complaining? yes

I woke up at 7ish after falling asleep around 3. my evening last night was filled frustrating writer's block and just a bad attitude all around. I hate feeling so negative about things but I get super moody and cranky when I can't think of anything to write.
Anywho, i woke up around 7 for my 8:00 class. I got dressed, put on some makeup, etc. first of all, I look like shit. I'm the type of person who wants everything to be visually appealing, and when something about my isn't visually appealing, I get frustrated. I know that sounds shallow, but it's one of my flaws that tends to kick my ass.
Then I went to go brush my teeth in the bathroom and I turned on the sink and the water is, in fact, brown. Wow, thank you WMU. So I had to wait until after class to brush my teeth and make sure the water would be clear.
I went to class and it was all about mind-body connection. and of course, we meditated, but I couldn't today. Every time I closed my eyes another worry, memory, or chore would pop up in my mind. It didn't help that I thought I had a huge project due this morning and I thought i had forgot about it. good thing it's due thursday....
so my body did the whole "fight-flight?" thing? where your body is on guard because you're so stressed so that you become all tense and your heart races and stuff...well apparently that happened. And I've been anxiety filled and shakey and worried all day because of that. Apparently after that wears off you crash and are completely exhausted. awesome. That'd be alright if, you know...I had time to sleep.
After class I came back and attempted to write my story, but grew frustrated with my writing and had another whopping round of writer's block. I also was growing frustrated with the smell of my room (hot sauce and cinnamon room spray and popcorn...yum?) and certian individuals who...well...were being frustrating. ugh. whatever. I'm still a titch mad and frustrated with said inviduals, but it's not like anything is going to change.
At least my Geo lab was easy. Identifying rocks isn't too difficult. But I got back from my Lab and I realized I forgot to eat today...but I don't have time. which sucks too. And I have no appetite. I don't know. I think I'm on the verge of my first, real, college level breakdown.
I think I'm just really frustrated with myself. I keep stuff bottled inside, I'm majorly flawed. I have alot of issues that may be beginning to bubble to the surface.

welcome to college....

-Lyndsey.